So, what now???

Ok, this is a question I think about daily. There are things I love and hate about competing and Figure in particular. At this point there is no way I could give it up, I love having order in my life and goals to achieve. I've gained some realistic expectations this year and am not sure I will ever win my Pro-Card in Figure...Figure depends dramatically on your natural genetic shape. Genetics blessed me with an ability to gain a lot of muscle, lean out well, but unfortunately I didn't get those hips and small waist that the judges love.

I like Figure because I am able to maintain a high degree of femininity, I can also be completely natural and have a comparable physique to the best on that stage. Many of my fellow competitors and friends have urged me to think about bodybuilding. There are very feminine bodybuilders as well, Jennifer Abrams and Debbie Bramwell come instantly to my mind and Jennifer (a known natural) is very competitive even on a National Level. I compete because I want to be the best and I am not sure I will ever be the best bodybuilder considering I will NEVER touch an illegal drug.

Bodybuilding is also more appealing because I will be rewarded for lifting how I love to lift-hard and heavy. After my last show this year I took off a week and eased slowly back into lifting. This past week I have been hitting the weight room with intensity I haven't had in months and I am really enjoying it. My plans for this year are to enjoy working out and see how my physique develops-once Spring comes around next year I will take a look at my physique and see where I will feel comfortable competing. If nothing else I want to enjoy working out and if I can't go at it in the weight room I will feel like I am wasting my time. There are things in my physique I must improve regardless of where I decide to compete so it should be an interesting journey wherever it takes me.